{"id":159,"date":"2012-07-18T13:30:00","date_gmt":"2012-07-18T13:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/2012\/07\/18\/jak-jsem-insomniovala\/"},"modified":"2019-09-25T19:19:12","modified_gmt":"2019-09-25T19:19:12","slug":"jak-jsem-insomniovala","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/2012\/07\/18\/jak-jsem-insomniovala\/","title":{"rendered":"Jak jsem insomniovala"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Jeden\u00e1ct hodin ve\u010der. M\u00e1m za sebou vy\u010derp\u00e1vaj\u00edc\u00ed den a
\nnem\u016f\u017eu se do\u010dkat, a\u017e si polo\u017e\u00edm hlavu do nad\u00fdchan\u00e9ho pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159e, p\u0159ikryju se
\nvo\u0148avou dekou, zav\u0159u o\u010di a nech\u00e1m se un\u00e1\u0161et na vln\u00e1ch fantasie do \u0159\u00ed\u0161e sn\u016f.<\/div>\n
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Lehnu si tedy do postele. Zav\u0159u o\u010di. Ale m\u00edsto vln fantasie
\nse dostav\u00ed z\u00e1plava my\u0161lenek, kter\u00e9 p\u0159es den nem\u011bly \u0161anci dostat se ke slovu, a
\nte\u010f se na m\u011b jedna p\u0159es druhou ne\u00faprosn\u011b hrnou.<\/div>\n
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Le\u017e\u00edm a sna\u017e\u00edm se nep\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let.<\/div>\n
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Kde jsem proboha p\u0159i\u0161la na to, \u017ee je m\u016fj pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159 nad\u00fdchan\u00fd?
\nP\u0159ipom\u00edn\u00e1 mi sp\u00ed\u0161 cihlu nebo \u0161pal\u00edk d\u0159eva. Abych ho ud\u011blala pohodln\u011bj\u0161\u00edm,
\npo\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b ho naklepu. Pak podruh\u00e9. Pot\u0159et\u00ed. Rezignuji. Snad budu za hodinu tak
\nunaven\u00e1, \u017ee usnu nehled\u011b na k\u0159e\u010de, kter\u00e9 m\u011b budou br\u00e1t do krku.<\/div>\n
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Neuplyne ani deset minut a p\u0159\u00edtel u\u017e pravideln\u011b oddychuje.
\nSkoro to vypad\u00e1, jako by to d\u011blal naschv\u00e1l. \u201ePoslouchej, j\u00e1 u\u017e d\u00e1vno sp\u00edm jako
\nnevi\u0148\u00e1tko!\u201c Roz\u010diluje m\u011b monot\u00f3nnost jednotliv\u00fdch n\u00e1dech\u016f a v\u00fddech\u016f. M\u00e1m chu\u0165
\ns\u00a0n\u00edm zat\u0159\u00e1st, abych ho z\u00a0jeho bla\u017een\u00e9ho klimb\u00e1n\u00ed probudila a trp\u011bl
\ntu v\u00a0tom potemn\u011bl\u00e9m pokoji se mnou.<\/div>\n
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Zkou\u0161\u00edm r\u016fzn\u00e9 \u201emedita\u010dn\u00ed\u201c techniky, kter\u00e9 by mi m\u011bly
\nukol\u00edbat mysl ke sp\u00e1nku. \u201eP\u0159edstavte si,
\n\u017ee b\u011b\u017e\u00edte po louce s\u00a0takovou lehkost\u00ed, jako byste nic nev\u00e1\u017eili!\u201c <\/i>Hm,
\nto bych nesm\u011bla sn\u00edst tu vynikaj\u00edc\u00ed o\u0159\u00ed\u0161kovou \u010dokol\u00e1du \u2026 co\u017e mi p\u0159ipom\u00edn\u00e1, \u017ee
\nu\u017e bych kone\u010dn\u011b m\u011bla za\u010d\u00edt cvi\u010dit! Mus\u00edm si HNED TE\u010e vymyslet cvi\u010debn\u00ed pl\u00e1n!<\/div>\n
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\u201eP\u0159i va\u0161em b\u011bhu jste
\nnarazili na \u0159\u00ed\u010dku. Jedinou cestou p\u0159es ni je \u00fazk\u00e1 l\u00e1vka. Zrovna tudy ale
\np\u0159ech\u00e1z\u00ed st\u00e1do ovc\u00ed. Mus\u00edte po\u010dkat, ne\u017e v\u0161echny p\u0159ejdou. Pomo\u017ete pastevci
\nspo\u010d\u00edtat, jestli jsou v\u0161echny.\u201c<\/i> Jedna, dva \u2026 V\u00e1\u017en\u011b m\u00e1 v\u00edc ne\u017e dvacet ovc\u00ed?
\nPochybuju.<\/div>\n
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\u201eDob\u011bhnete a\u017e
\nk\u00a0opu\u0161t\u011bn\u00e9 v\u011b\u017ei s\u00a0\u010derven\u00fdmi dve\u0159mi. Otev\u0159ete je. Ale u\u017e se nedozv\u00edte,
\nco je za nimi, proto\u017ee jste se pono\u0159ili do hlubok\u00e9ho sp\u00e1nku.<\/i>\u201c Ne,
\nnepono\u0159ili! Jak bych mohla te\u010f usnout, kdy\u017e se m\u00e1m kone\u010dn\u011b dozv\u011bd\u011bt, pro\u010d jsem
\nsem vlastn\u011b b\u011b\u017eela?<\/div>\n
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Kdy\u017e ovce a tajemn\u00e9 v\u011b\u017ee uprost\u0159ed luh\u016f a h\u00e1j\u016f nezab\u00edraj\u00ed,
\nzkou\u0161\u00edm techniku vlastn\u00ed v\u00fdroby. P\u0159edstavuji si, \u017ee v\u0161echny my\u0161lenky nakl\u00e1d\u00e1v\u00e1m
\ndo krabic a odn\u00e1\u0161\u00edm je na st\u016fl, pry\u010d z\u00a0moj\u00ed hlavy. Prvn\u00ed den to fungovalo,
\nale te\u010f \u0159e\u0161\u00edm, podle \u010deho bych m\u011bla my\u0161lenky do jednotliv\u00fdch krabic t\u0159\u00eddit. A
\njak vlastn\u011b ty blb\u00e9 krabice vypadaj\u00ed? Jsou z\u00a0kartonu nebo ze d\u0159eva? \u00a0<\/span>A u\u017e je v\u00e1\u017en\u011b nuda to tam v\u0161echno den co den nand\u00e1vat.<\/div>\n
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Po p\u016fl hodin\u011b vzd\u00e1v\u00e1m meditaci, nejsem prost\u011b dostate\u010dn\u011b
\nzenov\u00fd \u010dlov\u011bk. Vol\u00edm novou strategii: Budu prost\u011b le\u017eet, dokud neodpadnu. Mozek
\nsi p\u0159ece mus\u00ed \u0159\u00edct s\u00e1m, \u017ee u\u017e m\u00e1 t\u011bch blbost\u00ed dost! A r\u00e1no se mi snad poda\u0159\u00ed
\nsp\u00e1t a\u017e do deseti.<\/div>\n
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Tik \u0165ak.<\/div>\n
Tik \u0165ak.<\/div>\n
To v\u00e1\u017en\u011b n\u011bkdo zes\u00edlil to tik\u00e1n\u00ed v\u00a0hodin\u00e1ch? Jak m\u00e1m
\nv\u00a0takov\u00e9m r\u00e1musu v\u016fbec usnout? Hystericky z\u00a0hodin vytahuju baterku a
\nteatr\u00e1ln\u011b ji odhazuji kamsi do hloubi pokoje. Ale na tikot u\u017e jsem tak zvykl\u00e1,
\n\u017ee ho v\u00a0hlav\u011b sly\u0161\u00edm, i kdy\u017e u\u017e vlastn\u011b sly\u0161et nen\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Hrozn\u011b se nud\u00edm. V\u00a0hlav\u011b se mi to\u010d\u00ed po\u0159\u00e1d dokola ty
\nsam\u00e9 my\u0161lenky, ale furt se jich nem\u016f\u017eu zbavit. M\u00e1m pocit, jako bych se u\u017e po
\nstopades\u00e1t\u00e9 koukala na jeden a ten sam\u00fd seri\u00e1l. Nebo sp\u00ed\u0161 jednu jeho epizodu.
\nU\u017e zn\u00e1te repliky v\u0161ech herc\u016f, v\u00edte, \u017ee se zase stejn\u011b blb\u011b rozhodnou, nesn\u00e1\u0161\u00edte
\njejich sm\u011b\u0161n\u00e9 \u00fa\u0161klebky, ale p\u0159esto ne a ne vypnout televizi.<\/div>\n
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Vrcholem je, kdy\u017e za\u010dnu p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let o tom, \u017ee p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm.<\/div>\n
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To u\u017e se venku opravdu rozedn\u00edv\u00e1 nebo se akor\u00e1t m\u00e9 o\u010di u\u017e
\nnatolik p\u0159izp\u016fsobily tm\u011b z\u00a0toho nekone\u010dn\u00e9ho z\u00edr\u00e1n\u00ed do stropu? Ale klid,
\nsice u\u017e je k\u00a0r\u00e1nu, ale m\u016f\u017eu si p\u0159ispat t\u0159eba a\u017e do jeden\u00e1cti!<\/div>\n
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Najednou zaslechnu hroznou r\u00e1nu, jako by n\u011bkdo rozb\u00edjel
\nsklenice t\u011bsn\u011b u m\u00fdch u\u0161\u00ed. Leknu se a otev\u0159u o\u010di. U sk\u0159\u00edn\u011b stoj\u00ed p\u0159\u00edtel a sna\u017e\u00ed
\nse potichu zapnout p\u00e1sek na kalhot\u00e1ch. Je osm hodin r\u00e1no. N\u011bco mi \u0159\u00edk\u00e1, \u017ee ty
\n\u010dty\u0159i hodiny sp\u00e1nku mi na dne\u0161ek moc energie nedodaj\u00ed\u2026<\/p>\n
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Jeden\u00e1ct hodin ve\u010der. M\u00e1m za sebou vy\u010derp\u00e1vaj\u00edc\u00ed den a nem\u016f\u017eu se do\u010dkat, a\u017e si polo\u017e\u00edm hlavu do nad\u00fdchan\u00e9ho pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159e, p\u0159ikryju se vo\u0148avou dekou, zav\u0159u o\u010di a nech\u00e1m se un\u00e1\u0161et na vln\u00e1ch fantasie do \u0159\u00ed\u0161e sn\u016f. Lehnu si tedy do postele. Zav\u0159u o\u010di. Ale m\u00edsto vln fantasie se dostav\u00ed z\u00e1plava my\u0161lenek, kter\u00e9 p\u0159es den nem\u011bly \u0161anci…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[327],"tags":[128,310,311,312],"class_list":["post-159","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-jak-jsem-si-uzivala","tag-fejeton","tag-insomnie","tag-nespavost","tag-pocitani-ovecek"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/159","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=159"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/159\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1084,"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/159\/revisions\/1084"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=159"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=159"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nevsedni-vsednosti.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=159"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}